If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living.
Vargus, Archie’s Final Project
Today is the day of the year that is marked to make a special mention to our moms. To say thanks for all you do. To tell you that we love you, If it was only that simple.
I’m great with words, but not even I can find the right ones to tell you exactly what you mean to me. There are no words to describe fully, just how much I love and adore you. You’ve been there through most of it.
Sometimes you stepped right in and other times you stood back, letting me spread my wings. Mistakes were made….oh were there mistakes. But you knew those mistakes were necessary for me to make. In all of my stubbornness, in every moment I dug my heels in and refused to budge, you were still there.
We have an abundance of good memories, happy times shared together. We have pockets of time where things were a rough road for us.
All growing up you kept me under your wing, I never understood what it was you meant when you’d explain to people that you’re alright with giving the boys there space, but you’re keeping Jess under your wing. I hated you for it, I was confused, and I thought it was because you didn’t like me,
I realize now it had nothing to do with picking favorites, which is something I referred to a lot growing up. Also I began to realize that your intentions were to keep me safe. You’re my hero
There were/still are moments in time that are difficult to look back on without feeling pangs of hurt. But I believe that each memory, each glimpse of past mistakes, things that were rough, they happened for this very specific reason. It brought you and I to this point right here, right in this time.
I think we are in the best place we have ever been in, growing together, learning from each other. I know this because it has been tested many times. And here we still stand, hand in hand, side by side, holding the other up when times are unforgiving and relentless.
Thank you Mom for always being there and for comforting me when I need it.
Thank you Mom for accepting me, even when I made it difficult to.
Thank You Mom,for not giving up on me.
Thank you Mom for loving me, even when I once pushed you away,
In case I haven’t told you enough, showed you enough, I hope that me telling you now will forever stay in your mind and in your heart. Hold on to this today and every day after. I’ve needed you, need you now and will need you in the future. Please know that in your heart. “As long as I’m living, my Mama you’ll be.” Remember no matter the distance, no matter what is going on in our lives you will always be in mine
Happy Mother’s day, to the world’s best mother (L)
Forever and Always
Your little girl
You’re walking on this trail. One you’ve known years. Love and life seem to fail and not much is clear. Depression suppresses you. Giving up creeps near and your suicidal thoughts are starting to bring me to tears. Please don’t hurt yourself. It hurts the rest of us, too. Remember someone does care. Thousands, yes it is true. So wear your beautiful smile and prove to youself tonight. That your life is worth living, so please make it through, alright?
Out to do some shopping ! Maybe a new fish friend for the fish tank? <3 I truly adore the little family we’ve created of 2 betta’s(separate tanks) 2 pleco’s ( separate tanks) 2 tetra’s( in 20 gallon) and loach (in 5 gallon.) <3 <—- This is what happens when you really want a cat or dog but your landlord who is also your close friend and housemate doesn’t want to worry about litter boxes and taking dogs for walks ect.. so all I am allowed is fish.. I Need thousands to replace how it feels to hug my old border collie Roxy (L)